Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Goodbyes and Hellos


We had our follow-up ultrasound Monday at our clinic and learned that Baby B, "Dash", was no longer with us.  It was a strange ultrasound.  We could actually see the two sacs much more clearly than we could the prior ultrasound.  We could also see a stark difference between the two sacs:  "Violet" is alive and growing and had doubled in size in ten days; "Dash" was half the size of the previous visit and no longer had a heartbeat. 

Though we had hoped against hope for Dash's survival, he left his temporary home for his eternal home.  As we've done with all our little ones in heaven, we have given him a Biblical name - Joshua.  Goodbye, sweet Joshua.  We miss you.  We love you.  Please pray for the continued growth and health of "Violet".

And with this ultrasound, we are done with the clinic.  I am discharged from their care to the care of my normal, local OB.  Goodbye, clinic.  Thank you for your care of all of our Texas adopted embryos. 


I have yet to call my OB to schedule my first appointment.  Maybe today I'll make the time.  I can't wait to share an ultrasound experience with Cora and Mac and to let them hear the heartbeat of their growing sibling. 

"Violet", it's just you now.  My daydreams are switching over to life with a single newborn.  I've got to admit, life looks a lot easier with one baby rather than two.  You appear strong, a fighter even, after six years on ice.  We can't wait to welcome you to the world in May, or June, if you decide to take your time.  We love you.  Grow strong.


  1. Oh, Ange. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine the heartbreak of saying goodbye to so many little ones. This one in particular touched me because you gave him my son's name. We will pray for you and "Violet."

  2. I am so sorry to hear about Dash. But, wow, after reading about all you have gone through with embryo adoption, what a miracle little Violet is! Praying for a healthy pregnancy.

  3. What a beautifully written post. I am sorry little Joshua had to leave so soon. What a blessing sweet Violet is!

  4. Joshua, pray for us! I am sorry to hear of the departure of Joshua. Good news on Violet's growth. May she grown every day in love for the Lord just as she grows physically. God bless you all,
    Kelly B.

  5. Such a bittersweet moment...goodbye little Joshua. What a sweet miracle both babies are. "Life, no matter how short, is still bigger than death." So excited for little Violet and all that this baby will be as a member of your earthly family.