Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Learning how to pray

Each transfer I've struggled to find the right words to pray.

This morning I think I finally figured out the words.  I am praying for an end of fear. For complete acceptance of God's will, even if that means our family will stay a family of four (on earth).

Let me just say, I am not there yet.  Still fearful. Of failure, of pain, of loss, of the end of dreams...

But the complete surrender that God wants of me? I'm praying for the supernatural strength to work towards it.

I have a long way to go.

Edit:  I am praying that we end up with two more sets of twins, meaning survival for all four of our adopted embryos. However, my prayer for an end of fear, for Trust in the divine plan, needs to come first.

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